FUCK Cancer

​Saturday is World Cancer Day. Who do you say Fuck Cancer for? I say it for the most beautiful woman I've ever known. 

She pushed me to be better because she believed in me. She was my cheerleader & knew my potential. She kept me in line. She always knew what to say & cheered me up when I was down. She took care of me when I was sick. She acted stupid with me in public & we always had fun together. 

I miss the way she stood up for what she thought was right. I miss her calling me 20 times a day. I miss her laugh. I miss her smile. I miss her nasty smelling perfume & her man shirts & jean dresses. I miss her advice. I miss her getting on to me when I did stupid shit. I miss the way she looked at my Dad. I miss her bugging me to go to church. There's so much about her I miss.

Mom, when you had to go, it left a huge hole in my heart. I wish you were here right now so we could get in the car and jam out on the way to the mall. Sing at the top of our lungs. Buy some new shoes.  Go to Magic Springs and go crazy in the waterpark and on the rollercoasters.  Call Dad to check in with him to ensure him we're o.k. Laugh so much it hurts. Eat Mexican food and spill cheesedip all over your shirt. Get in bed and watch movies until we fall asleep. 

FUCK YOU, CANCER!!! I say Fuck Cancer for taking you away so soon. Fuck Cancer because you won't be there on my wedding day. Fuck cancer because my children won't get to know you. Fuck cancer because we can't grow old together. 
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You were the best mother & friend a girl could ask for! Mom, I love you so much! You always were and always will be my beautiful angel.